We all handle death differantly. There truly is no right or wrong. I remember having such a mass of emotions and thinking they were all bad. Any feeling a person has while dealing with death is not wrong. As long as you deal with the death you're doing good. Take help where you can. My best friends held me together. I cannot thank them enough. Of course my husband was great. But my friends did something he couldn't. He was morning the loss also. I hope you two know who you are, I won't put you're names here without asking first. They still will help pull me through the rough days. I can't always go to my husband when dealing with issues of Junior. I protect my husband, I don't want to see him hurt any more than he already does.